Last week or so I was given a prayer.
Today I acknowledge that I exist and have always existed in Love. I speak this Love. I hear this Love. I see this Love. I move this Love. I dance this Love. I am this Love so that others may remember that they too are this Love. There is nothing that can stand against the Truth of this Love. Amen.
I have had a challenging week; not really because of ‘bad’ things happening but because I am being asked to shift and change my routine. I have been in training for a bank job all week which is a big giant step out of my comfort zone. Sitting in front of a computer all day, wearing confining suits and being cooped up in a confining room where I can’t feel the outdoors or even see it very well began to wear on me along about Thursday. Friday I took lots of breaks to walk downstairs and just stand outside, reassuring myself that my world had not disappeared. In the afternoon I ended up in the bathroom and there were no other stalls besides the handicapped stall. I walked in and shut the door behind me and felt a sudden peace right there. The stall was huge and for the first time in days I felt like I wasn’t being crushed in upon by people, computers, hyper air conditioning, or numbers, figures, and procedures restructuring my brain. I just leaned against the wall and took deep breaths. I wondered why I couldn’t have this space around me always.
At first I was thinking, “I can’t do this all week for any amount of time. All of this is draining me. I don’t do well being constantly exposed to computers.”
Then something stopped me. It was this, “There is nothing that can stand against the Truth of this Love.” Everything I said before this was just beliefs I had; they are lies! The only reason computers or people or anything else has any power to drain me, frustrate me, or otherwise scramble me up like broken, turned and burned eggs is because I believe that it can and this belief cuts off the flow of Love through me. If I listen to and remember the Truth that nothing can stand against Love then all of that drowns in the flow of Love coming from me. I felt stronger and less fatigued immediately. I returned to my desk and the rest of the afternoon zoomed by.
That afternoon as I drove away from the business complex, I passed a homeless person; skinny, white -haired and wild-eyed. The familiar feelings of fear and pity gripping, twisting, and shrinking my heart took over my insides; then anger at myself for feeling these things. I have struggled with these feelings in helping or wanting to help people and animals heal. I know that this keeps me from helping them as much as I could. I remembered, “There is nothing that can stand against the Truth of this Love.” and saw the answer I had been asking for. Can I trust Love enough to just flow? Can I stay out of the way long enough and allow it to work its miracle? Can I trust that this is all there is to ‘do’ so that we can all heal? I’m certainly going to try, or in this case, stop trying, and watch the beauty unfold.
